PRODIGAL SUN

i survived over an hour of intense moshing this week on friday.
avenged sevenfold! yeah it was awesome even though no matter how you move you were touching sweaty shirts and stuff. the sound quality was pretty bad, cant hear no shit, only the crowd. and i think zacky's guitar was out of tune. xianyi turned into a monster the moment they played "afterlife"! shoulda seen him. he started shouting the songs and elbowed this fella who was moshing his way thru the crowd. and i saw that dude fly backwards...

hey, did you see the mosh just now?
oh you mean the bunch of people who were trying to kill each another? did they survive?

and school hasnt been working really well for me.
sometimes i feel like a guitar. an instrument that goes out of tune from time to time,
waiting for something or someone to come and tune it back.

and i feel so... out of tune now.

its like i have been having doubts or have been doubted of my abilities to perform well. its all in the mind they say. i say that too. but the mind is just something so hard to comprehend. like we're all slaves to our thoughts. it blinds us, controls and forces us to do the unthinkable.

then a shot from the dark - something just speaks to me, telling me "this cant be it". im more than what i think i can. larger than what i think i can be.

cause im bigger than my body gives me the credit for.
its time already...

time to let my little shoe start kicking ass :)