MY OWN PRISON

THE AFTERMATH ----
Leg pain. butt pain. back pain. arm pain. shoulder pain. here pain. there pain. everywhere pain. Shit balls.

Down to the last week of school.
I have tests almost every single day. And with 2 projects still at hand, i hope things get better over time. On top of that, being the group leader for both projects really adds on to the load.

Then when all is over, just after the last test i have for the week. Squash training kicks in straight away in the face. what can i say? thats just....Great.

By the way Iam supposed to learn "one last breath" by Creed by sunday, just in time for guitar lesson. i probably won't be able to make it. Then theres squash gathering in the night at east coast. Before np camp kicks in for 4/5 days straight at St.Pats. ooloma...

These days, i have been feeling weak. enslaved by my own thoughts and desires lately. The more i want, the more afraid i am. The fear of losing is there. It doesn't seem to go. The shadow of it stays. Then i realize - we are the only ones that move.

Please someone make it go away. Make me/us go away.

I'm glad the break's coming. This will all pass. The great escape.

I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

~JC